Today is a good day, is it a good day for me, no it’s a good day for ED. ED is what a lot of us call our eating disorder to separate ourselves from it. My ED is anorexia nervosa and ED has been in my head now for 17 years. For 2 and a half years it has been been.

Lately, things in recovery have been looking up. But starting this week I am running headfirst into ED’s arms. I am restricting and exercising against dr\s orders. It feels great to be back at the gym. My endorphins are pumping. Do I lie to my treatment team about this, no, I never have.

So in my head I want to lose 5 pounds as my weight has gone up this past year since moving in with my partner, who loves to cook.

I will keep you posted…